Protons, Neutrons & Electrons, Oh My!

Hey, Happy Valentine’s Day!

Every February, I am reminded of how some of us can happily live our lives for decades totally unaware that things may not be as they seem!  That is … until Life sneaks up behind us, taps us on the shoulder, and when we turn around … smacks us square in the face with a reality two-by-four!

I speak from personal experience. You see, my two-by-four-moment coincided with Valentine’s Day, an  infamous day when the [cough, cough] ‘love of my life’—code named Casper—‘ghosted’ our long term marriage.

With the unexpected announcement that he was leaving, my dear departing poltergeist commenced with his total annihilation of everything that represented our marriage and/or the life we’d built together.

With one fell swoop, he nuked it all—in nanoseconds! It happened just like that (!) leaving me stunned and bewildered—[and quite frankly], looking much like a mouth-breathing idiot.

Malfunctioning Early Warning System

The weird thing about all this was that there’d been absolutely no perceptible precursors, warning signs, or prodromal period. Nothing! Those facts—combined with how he included the Machiavellian element of surprise—made it all so very surreal. It was as if I’d suddenly been dropped onto a Hollywood movie set and I was observing something happening to actors on a movie set—not something happening in to me in real time.

Hit And Run

Thirty minutes after his announcement, my husband was gone for good. He left with only the clothes on his back, his laptop and miscellaneous technology, and the few things that he was able to cram into a suitcase and a duffel bag as he ran around like a crazy person, crying and pulling things out of dresser drawers, his closet, and out from under the bed.

Once he finished with his abbreviated packing, he hugged me and then walked slowly down the sidewalk towards his awaiting and running car. Once he placed his hand on the handle of the car door, he turned around, looked back at me, smiled a forced  smile, nodded like they do in the movies—and pulled out of the driveway.

I was in absolute shock. So much so that I couldn’t move or speak. All I could do was watch in stunned silence as his car made it’s way out of the subdivision. Once he left, he immediately went No Contact, and has stuck by it without exception—to this very day.

I would soon learn that he left with a lot more than his clothes. I had yet to discover that while ‘we’ paid the household bills and his income taxes on his 1099 employment from the account where ‘my’ paycheck was deposited, he was using ‘his’ paychecks to amass a suitcase full of gold.

Apparently, he needed to be liquid as possible when he left the country.

Also unbeknownst to me, sometime prior to the day he walked out, he also ‘appropriated’ the account that ‘we’ were supposedly putting money for our grandson’s college tuition. God only knows what other marital assets he hid and/or absconded with.

Fade To Black

Still unable to speak, l looked around in eery silence. In less than an hour, there had been a total implosion of everything I’d known as ‘our life’ for nearly three decades. Yet … inanimate objects remained untouched and unaffected … The house was still standing … The furniture was still in place … Even the television in his man cave was still blaring ESPN as it had been.

There was no question about it. Something other-worldly had just occurred. A sudden, very powerful, and strangely evil vacuum-like sensation had resulted in an uncomfortable chill in all the rooms. It was as if all the energy and life force had been instantly sucked out of what had formerly been a home … Yet the home itself and the contents within it was still standing. It was then that I realized what had just occurred …

I had been a first-party witness witness to the detonation of a neutron bomb.



Neutron Dance by The Pointer Sisters

There’s no money falling from the sky—‘Cause my man took my heart and robbed me blind
Someone stole my brand new Chevrolet—And the rent is due, I got no place to stay
Whoo oooh—Whoo oooh

And it’s hard to say—Just how some things never change
And it’s hard to find—Any strength to draw the line
Oh I’m just burning doin’ the neutron dance—I’m just burning doin’ the neutron dance

Industry don’t pay a price that’s fair—All the common people breathing filthy air (Lord have mercy)
Roof caved in on all the simple dreams—And to get ahead your heart starts pumping schemes
And it’s hard to say—Just how some things never change (hey, hey)
And it’s hard to find—Any strength to draw the line (whoa oh)
I’m just burning doin’ the neutron dance—I’m just burning doin’ the neutron dance
Whoo oooh—Whoo oooh

I’m on fire, yeah—I’m on fire, yeah
And it’s hard to say—Just how some things never change
And it’s hard to find—Any strength to draw the line
I’m just burning doin’ the neutron dance—I’m just burning doin’ the neutron dance
I know there’s a pot of gold for me—All I got to do is just believe

I’m so happy doin’ the neutron dance—And I’m just burning doin’ the neutron dance
I’m so happy doin’ the neutron dance—I’m just burning doin’ the neutron dance
Whoo oooh—Whoo oooh
I’m so happy doin’ the neutron dance—And I’m just burning doin’ the neutron dance (yeah, yeah)
Whoo oooh—Whoo oooh

I’m so happy (it’s in my hands)—I’m just burning (it’s in my feet)
I’m so happy (it’s all over me)—I’m just burning (I can’t help myself)
I’m so happy (yeah, yeah)—I’m just burning (oh, yeah)
I’m so happy (oh, yeah)—I’m just burning (I’m just burning)
I’m so happy (oh, yeah)—I’m just burning (it’s in my feet)
I’m so happy (it’s in my hands)—I’m just burning (it’s in my feet)
I’m so happy (it’s all over me)

Songwriters: Allee Willis / Danny Sembello
Neutron Dance lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

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I am a freelance blogger, writer, music enthusiast, comic, and former fool who spent way too many years a workaholic worrying incessantly, solving everyone else's problems, and missing out my own life. Several years ago, the Universe kindly tapped me on the shoulder with a sledgehammer to tell me there's more to life than work. I now live to eke out of every ounce of happiness that still awaits me. My avocation is blogging and interlacing topics of all kinds (serious and not so serious) with music, graphics, and other multimedia.

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